they say "fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me"

...but who is the idiot the third time? there is no indicator for who the shame falls on when you are going for the hat trick. or when you are fooled the fourth time. or fifth.

maybe you don't want to learn your lesson. maybe it's a string of bad luck. maybe God keeps throwing the same obstacle your way because you just aren't getting it. either way you end up a multiple-offending fool rather than a finding yourself in a foolish one-time, isolated incident. and seeingly nothing will ever prove you wise. you find yourself here, again in the midst of the same circumstance. maybe it was your own mistake that brought you here. or maybe, the star just keep aligning the same way for you. but you feel stuck.

you keep hanging yourself on a risk you're too scared to take, or you won't enforce that necessary restraint that's right in front of you. you keep ignoring a lingering moral because you don't want to teach it to yourself yet, or you just can't seem to grasp it in full. you know it's bad for you, but you're young. you know it's bad for you, but holding it as a focus let's you neglect everything else. you know it's bad for you, but the temporary high outweighs the long term benefits. or you don't know it's bad for you. or you don't know it's bad at all. all you know is that it's reoccurring and however you've been remedying it isn't working.

fool me once, shame on you
fool me twice, shame on me
so who is left to blame now?

Kate.